Just Wanna - The influence of Gossip Girl

I just wanna hide myself in my room tonight and cry and not go tomorrow.

I'm reading my Lab Manual for prac 4 and 5. I have no idea how to answer the Pre-Lab questions, which is a real worry because you're meant to be able to answer them before doing doing the prac. Honestly, how am I supposed to know why you have to use a short-stemmed funnel instead of the normal [long] one??

I'm scared because I haven't finished this one thing that I should have done weeks ago.

Spoke to my mum a few minutes ago and I told her how badly I screwed up prelims. Thank goodness it's not counted. And all she could say to me?? Don't worry, you didn't do that bad.

I feel bad enough as it is - worried and angry - yet, here I have people telling me I'll do fine. It's effing annoying when people seem to put you on a pedestal - not necessarily a high one, it could be a platform, but it's higher than ground level - and keep saying that you'll do FINE.

Well, NEWSFLASH: It's NOT fine. If it was fine, I wouldn't be freaking out or worrying or swearing my heart out or God forbid, throwing a tantrum.

Today was seriously not my day. Or rather, these few times with a certain someone has really been nerve-grating. I'm not hurt by it, not much at least. But the thought that someone could just say something like that. The person, I believe, is not mean. Said person could have been joking, but sometimes, it's really hard to distinguish between this person's jokes and sincere comments. God knows, I've been verbally attacked by this person before. I'm sure before, they were all jokes even though there might be some element of truth in it. I treated them as jokes.

I'm not some verbal punching bag.

I do NOT deserve to be treated as such.

So really, like our first name initials suggest , you are not Blair Waldorf and I am not 'Little Jenny Humphrey'. Get off my case already and leave those comments where they belong.

In non-existence.












I'm feeling depressed now, not because of what that person said. I'm looking at my chem stuff and I have no idea what it's talking about or how to answer the questions. So, it's leading me to think about how much I don't know. I only have a couple of days to study for the uni chem exam, which is the Monday after the Chem 3/4 exam. I'm really scared that I'll screw up again like in the Chem mid-years.

Truth be told, I'm just scared I'll screw up all my exams in general.


I fail in Life.


I'm listening to a song that isn't making me feel any better.

Now, I'm thinking that maybe I have a streak of masochism in me.


Funny what serial dramas can do to you.