September

1st of September was Teacher's Day in Singapore.

Happy Belated Teacher's Day to all the Mg teachers.
Not that i expect any of them to know that this blog exists, let alone read it.

Yesterday, 2nd September. Father's Day in Australia. -- too close for comfort.
Went to shiyou's church. i have to admit that i am a little bit uncomfortable with the uh... enthusiasm. it felt good to hear ppl speak in tongues again. the last time i heard it was during confirmation camp - that was ages ago, almost 2 years this december. and after church, it was very disconcerting.

had pizza with shiyou, was hungry. so had to cancel dinner at wrixon since church ended at 8. got kinda scared walking by myself down davis st.

screwed up methods test today. really bad. couldn't sleep last night. just kept crying. even this morning while i was getting ready for school, i started tearing up. one thing that really sucks here is that some ppl just... when i tell them that i think i screwed a test up, they say "what la you?? screw the test up then come back with 80+%"

i don't get what they don't get especially after i explain my situation with them. i can't believe the stupid careless mistakes i made during the test. especially when it was the solving for tan teta(or however you spell it). i forgot that it was in the negative tangent quadrants. idiot...

and the ananlysis section. i don't know what was happening to me this morning. i couldn't understand a simple y=9-5cos (tpi/10). well, i understood but i just couldn't draw it properly. thought my calculator was screwed.

oh gosh.. don't even get me started on the mcqs. total catastrophe.

and i only realised my mistake after za and cheong discussed it. i asked because i was insecure about my answers. oh gosh!!!

after methods was chem. and i really felt like crying. really didn't want to go to chem class. was so upset that i couldn't even do simple mole calculations properly. was so damn freaking careless. can't believe it. and i thought it was bad back in singapore.

so during chem class, i was so frustrated i actually started tearing up again. God!! what is my problem. i can't seem to stop crying. really missed the gang.. jas, hidz, suri, rimz. i remembered last year after tests, especially add maths and humanities, hmm.. maybe even physics. i'd be so down and upset. but they knew how to handle me even though i put up a fight.

and suri, you guys, thanks for bearing with me. sorry for shouting at you guys in o levels (suri especially). i think it was after physics prac. thanks for being there.

gotta go back now. sigh.

Praise you Lord